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- Aug. 02, 1993: A Boy And His Gun
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- <history>
- TIME--The Weekly Newsmagazine--1993
- Aug. 02, 1993 Big Shots:America's Kids and Their Guns
- </history>
- <article>
- <source>Time Magazine</source>
- <hdr>
- COVER, Page 20
- A Boy And His Gun
- </hdr>
- <body>
- <p>Even in a town like Omaha, Nebraska, the young are packing weapons
- in a deadly battle against fear and boredom
- </p>
- <p>By JON D. HULL/OMAHA
- </p>
- <p> Doug wasn't even that nervous when he finally got his gun. Just
- awfully self-conscious and kind of giddy, like when he first
- started making out with girls. A classmate at Father Flanagan
- High School gave him the beeper number of a dealer in town.
- An older guy, maybe in his early 30s, answered the page. "Meet
- me in the parking lot behind the McDonald's at 30th and Ames.
- Tuesday night, say around 8."
- </p>
- <p> Doug took his older brother's Ford pickup truck, which has
- a nice deep rumble and gives Doug's budding tough-guy image
- some clout. With a blue baseball cap tipped low over his eyebrows,
- the slightly built sophomore waited in the parking lot, smoking
- Kools one after another and staring awkwardly at other male
- customers as they stepped out of their cars. Finally, one man
- nodded slightly in reply and waved Doug over to his car. Doug
- walked slowly, attempting a saunter. The man popped his trunk
- open, and Doug peered inside at a shiny pile of handguns and
- rifles. Silently, he counted the money in his pocket, suddenly
- wishing to hell he'd brought more. He stared at the weapons.
- They said: Power. Authority. Respect. All at entry-level prices.
- </p>
- <p> With only $25 in his wallet--earnings from mowing a few lawns--he quickly settled on a used Remington semiautomatic 12-gauge
- shotgun. He was pleasantly surprised by its heft as he slid
- it into a canvas bag and scurried back to his truck. At 16,
- Doug was finally a force to be reckoned with at Father Flanagan
- High, in his white, working-class neighborhood of Benson and
- on the streets of Omaha. "If you have a gun, you have power.
- That's just the way it is," he says. "Guns are just a part of
- growing up these days." Doug felt older already. With the radio
- blaring heavy metal, he smiled all the way home.
- </p>
- <p> That evening, while his parents watched television, Doug sneaked
- into the garage and got his Dad's hacksaw. Carefully selecting
- a spot along the barrel, he began to cut. He was amazed at how
- easily the blade sliced through the metal. Smoothing the end
- with a metal file, he then cut the stock, reducing the gun by
- almost 2 ft. in length and transforming it into the weapon
- of choice among many teenage toughs: a pistol-grip, sawed-off
- shotgun, which he pronounces almost as one word. "Easy to hide
- and no need to aim. Just bam! and you clear the room," he says.
- Returning the gun to the canvas bag, he hurried back to his
- room, paused briefly to consider a hiding place, and then slid
- the weapon under his mattress before joining his parents for
- dinner.
- </p>
- <p> Getting the gun was the easy part. Firing it for the first time
- was terrifying. "Hell, it was pretty beat up, and I didn't know
- if it would jam or something," says Doug. "I mean, how was I
- supposed to know whether the damn thing would just blow up in
- my face because it was busted and maybe that's why the guy sold
- it to me in the first place?"
- </p>
- <p> Doug and his friend Scott, 15, debated this problem for several
- days, turning the shotgun over and over in their hands, carefully
- inspecting and cleaning every part. They bought a box of shells
- from a friend and practiced loading and unloading the gun. Finally
- one Saturday, they drove out of town and headed for the countryside.
- "We didn't know quite what we were going to do until we found
- this tree near a cornfield that was split right down the middle
- into a V," says Doug. He loaded one shell and carefully worked
- the gun into the crotch of the tree until it fit tightly. Then,
- while both boys crouched behind the sides of the tree, Doug
- reached around to the gun, felt for the trigger, closed his
- eyes and squeezed. "I just love that sound," he says.
- </p>
- <p> In four months, Doug figures, he's done nine drive-by shootings,
- aiming mostly at cars and houses. "It's basically revenge, that
- sort of thing," he says. Like when he shot five times at a truck
- that belonged to the boyfriend of a judge's daughter--a roundabout
- response to the judge's conviction of several of his friends
- for various offenses. "I'm not actually aiming at anybody,"
- he says. "But once my older brother missed a baby's head by
- a quarter of an inch. It was in all the news."
- </p>
- <p> The roar of Doug's shotgun is the sound of a growing national
- tragedy. America's easy availability of guns and the restlessness
- of its youth have finally collided with horrific results. Gunshots
- now cause 1 of every 4 deaths among American teenagers, according
- to the National Center for Health Statistics. Bullets killed
- nearly 4,200 teenagers in 1990, the most recent year for which
- figures are available, up from 2,500 in 1985. An estimated 100,000
- students carry a gun to school, according to the National Education
- Association. In a survey released last week, pollster Louis
- Harris found alarming evidence of a gun culture among the 2,508
- students he polled in 96 schools across the U.S. Fifteen percent
- of students in the sixth through 12th grades said they have
- carried a handgun in the past 30 days, 11% said they have been
- shot at, and 59% said they know where to get a gun if they need
- one.
- </p>
- <p> But even the worst schools are safer than the streets, which
- is why summer is the deadliest season. For many teenagers, with
- their undeveloped sense of mortality and craving for thrills,
- gunplay has become a deadly sport. "You fire a gun and you can
- just hear the power," says Doug. "It's like yeah!"
- </p>
- <p> Not long ago, many Americans dismissed the slaughter as an inner-city
- problem. But now the crackle of gunfire echoes from the poor,
- urban neighborhoods to the suburbs of the heartland. Omaha,
- with a population of 340,000, is just an average Midwestern
- city, which is why the story of its armed youth shows how treacherous
- the problem has become. The Omaha neighborhood of Benson, a
- tidy grid of suburban-style homes on the northwest side, has
- been taken by surprise. Three dozen shaken parents and troubled
- teenagers gathered on a rainy Tuesday night in May at the Benson
- Community Center, bracing for summer's onslaught and groping
- for solid ground in a world where cruising can include drive-by
- shootings and where a semiautomatic handgun can be the most
- exciting thing in a boy's life, the 1990s equivalent of a shiny
- new bicycle. "My son was shot last summer," announces Chris
- Messick, a mother of three. "They almost shot his head off."
- </p>
- <p> Mike Spencer, a divorced father of two, rises slowly to speak
- but the tears flow before the words. He stammers, "What in God's
- name are you kids doing with your lives?" In the corner, seven
- young men sink lower and lower in their chairs, their faces
- disappearing beneath an assortment of baseball caps. Spencer
- is too upset to say any more. Joseph Henry, a father of six,
- stands up. "I've been to four funerals in North Omaha, all kids,"
- he says. "Can't young people get together without slaughtering
- each other?"
- </p>
- <p> The question preoccupies assistant police chief Larry Roberts,
- who has been on the Omaha force for 20 years. He says the big
- surge in youth violence started in 1986, when gang members from
- Los Angeles moved eastward to colonize smaller cities. Now teenagers
- throughout the area try to match the firepower of the gang members.
- "If one kid brings a little .22-cal. pistol and the other has
- a .357 Magnum, then guess who has status," Roberts says. The
- gunplay spread quickly beyond the gangs. "For some reason this
- particular generation of kids has absolutely no value for human
- life," he says. "They don't know what it is to die or what it
- means to pull the trigger."
- </p>
- <p> Yet many have seen by first-hand experience. Jennifer Rea, 15,
- allegedly shot to death her two younger sisters one afternoon
- last March with a .22-cal. pistol. Carlos Fisher, 16, put a .38-cal. pistol to his head in May while playing with some friends
- at his house and pulled the trigger, killing himself. Police
- believe he either was playing Russian roulette or assumed the
- gun was unloaded. Travis Hogue, 18, is accused of shooting and
- killing Nikki Chambers, 19, a male rival, in the rest room of
- a McDonald's in April with four shots from a .38.
- </p>
- <p> Mayor P.J. Morgan and other community leaders take offense at
- any suggestion that Omaha is dangerous. Compared with most American
- cities, it is not. So far this year, 16 residents--about half
- of them juveniles--have been murdered, which is just a bad
- weekend in Los Angeles. But if the battle against youth violence
- can't be won in Omaha, which has an unemployment rate of only
- 3.3%, the rest of the nation is in for trouble. So far that
- battle is being lost. On any Saturday night, Omaha's police
- radio betrays the city's image as a bastion of conservative
- heartland values: "Caller reports two youths with guns in a
- parking lot...Anonymous caller reports shots in her neighborhood...Drive-by shooting reported...Officer reports at least
- 10 shots...One young male wounded by gunfire."
- </p>
- <p> In Doug's ramblings with his sawed-off, he has peppered his
- neighborhood with shotgun pellets. He can't explain why he shot
- the dog. "What does it matter?" he asks with a shrug. Late one
- evening last March, he and a few friends crept up to a house
- and took several potshots. "I saw this dog sitting on a couch
- in this big window above the front porch, so I just shot him."
- Doug's expression is devoid of remorse or bravado as he drives
- by the brown, two-story house, recounting the incident one afternoon.
- A teenage girl with long brown hair sits on the porch reading.
- The outer walls of the house are still pocked with pellet holes.
- "I'm not sure what kind of dog it was, but he fell out the window
- and onto the porch," says Doug. "I could hear him yelping as
- we ran away."
- </p>
- <p> Doug isn't really sure how he and his friends graduated from
- Wiffle ball--once their favorite game--to guns. "My older
- brother was into guns, so I've been around this stuff since
- I was about 13," he says. Both his parents work, and his father
- is a recovering alcoholic. Doug says that before his dad stopped
- drinking three years ago, "it was always really violent around
- my house."
- </p>
- <p> Sometimes the guns are for protection, a youngster's seemingly
- prudent response to the small-arms race among his peers. But
- often, guns and gunfights are just a defense against the inexplicable
- despair that torments so many American teenagers. While the
- basic destructive impulses of rebellious young men remain unchanged,
- the methods of rebellion are now far more dangerous. Today's
- miscreants know that a pistol says much more than long hair
- or a pierced nose ever could. Not just louder, but forever.
- With a $25 investment, all the teasing from classmates stops
- cold. Suddenly, the shortest, ugliest and weakest kid becomes
- a player.
- </p>
- <p> Saying no to guns is still easy for any self-respecting teenager
- with a little sense, but dealing with guys who do have guns
- is an excruciating business. Steve, 14, stopped walking home
- alone from school last year when many of his fellow seventh-graders
- at Hale Junior High started talking up guns. "Some guys just
- started to change. It became cool to say you could get a gun,"
- he says. "Nobody messes with you if they even think you may
- have a gun." Polite, clean-cut and still displaying the awkwardness
- of adolescence, Steve says he lives in almost constant apprehension.
- "Oh boy, summer is really the worst," he says. "You always have
- to deal with troublemakers who will push you around for no reason,
- but now it's really scary. I know I look like a fool if I get
- in an argument and walk away, but these days it's too dangerous
- to fight."
- </p>
- <p> Some days, guns are just a defense against boredom that comes
- from a lack of guidance and direction. Asked to name a single
- hobby, Doug, who is remarkably guileless for a gunslinger, is
- stumped. He concedes the craziness of him and his classmates
- shooting at one another, but wonders how it could be any different.
- "Parents just don't understand that everything has changed,"
- he says. "You can't just slug it out in the schoolyard anymore
- and be done with it. Whoever loses can just get a gun."
- </p>
- <p> Doug looks for affirmation of his own violent impulses in such
- movies as South-Central and Boyz 'N the Hood. He misses their
- point, embracing the life-style they portray rather than heeding
- any cautionary tale they offer. His favorite book is Do or Die,
- an account of the lives of gang members in Los Angeles. "If
- there were more books like that, I'd read a lot more," he says,
- without a hint of sarcasm.
- </p>
- <p> Doug floors his Ford truck through a yellow light, turns sharply
- and then slows, carefully checking out the other cars as he
- cruises the largely white working-class neighborhoods of Benson.
- He points to a light blue, wood-frame house. Dozens of pellet
- holes from two shotgun blasts scar the wall on either side of
- the front door. In the driveway, an elderly man tinkers with
- a blue Chevy Caprice, which is also riddled with holes. Doug
- drives by slowly, confident he won't be recognized. "We did
- that three months ago. Monday night about 2 a.m. me and six
- other guys just fired from the street." He shakes his head.
- "That old man's son has a problem with stealing cars." Doug
- puts an Ice-T disc on his car CD player and cranks up the volume.
- "There's a lot of rappers that make a lot of sense," he says.
- His friend Scott nods reverently. But neither Doug nor Scott
- can explain what the songs mean to them. While the lyrics may
- address inner-city issues, the tone resonates among white teenagers
- like them simply because it's the angriest stuff on the market.
- </p>
- <p> "Now, let's say we were going to shoot that house," says Doug,
- pointing down the street. "Just about now I'd cut the lights
- and slow down. Then bang, bang, bang, and I'd punch it out of
- there." The truck lurches forward. Doug turns the stereo louder.
- </p>
- <p> Most Omaha residents used to dismiss teenage gunplay as a problem
- confined to the north side of Omaha, which is largely black
- and poor. That comfortable notion was shattered last August
- by a seven-minute fire fight among mostly white teenagers in
- Benson. "I've lived in this area all my life, and now boys are
- shooting at each other for the hell of it," says Bonnie Elseman,
- a single mother in the neighborhood. "I now realize that I owe
- the blacks in Omaha an apology for ignoring all the shootings
- because I thought it was just their problem. I could just weep
- for these kids."
- </p>
- <p> Especially for her son Jeff, an only child. He was one of the
- shooters last summer during the gun battle at 61st and Sprague,
- part of a tree-lined neighborhood of neatly kept, working-class
- houses. "We were just planning on a big fight, like a rumble,
- when six cars came cruising down the street and the shooting
- started," says Jeff, 20, whose quick and warm smile defeats
- even his best efforts at posturing. He ran inside a house, grabbed
- his .32-cal. pistol and returned fire. Another friend retrieved
- a mini MAC-10, a semiautomatic he had hidden in the bushes,
- while a third pulled out a .22-cal. rifle. "That mini MAC saved
- us," says Jeff, who blindly blazed away at the cars, which circled
- the block three times. Seven minutes later, two youths lay wounded,
- one seriously. Neighboring houses were riddled with bullets;
- one car had 14 puncture holes. "It's weird nobody died," Jeff
- says. He pauses, running his hands over his neatly shaved head.
- "I never really did learn to shoot too well."
- </p>
- <p> Not for lack of trying. Jeff's life came apart in adolescence.
- "I don't know what happened," says Bonnie. "He was such a beautiful
- child. He still is my beautiful child. But he got so angry."
- After he was kicked out of Monroe Junior High for misconduct,
- Bonnie sent him to Boys Town for three years. But Jeff grew
- more rebellious. He got his first gun, a .25-cal. semiautomatic,
- in his mid-teens. A year later, he dodged his first bullet;
- after a fistfight, his opponent returned with a rifle and opened
- fire. That same year, he did his first drive-by. "We shot at
- a house, just to let them know that the games were over," he
- says. Although he doesn't believe he ever hit anyone, he confesses
- that "one time we almost hit a four-year-old girl by mistake."
- </p>
- <p> Two years ago, Jeff paid $50 to a friend for the stolen .32-cal.
- pistol he used in last summer's shoot-out. After the gunfight,
- he tossed it in a lake and bought a 12-gauge, sawed-off shotgun.
- "You feel invincible with a weapon," he says. In April he was
- arrested for possession of a .410-gauge shotgun, and now faces
- felony charges.
- </p>
- <p> All in all, Jeff doesn't consider himself a violent guy, notwithstanding
- several broken noses. "I don't have a quick temper, but if I'm
- mad, I'm mad for three weeks," he says, which is a long time
- in the life of an armed youth. He graduated from Benson High
- School last year, and works digging fence holes while awaiting
- trial. "I'm trying to stay away from guns now, but it's like
- everybody has them. Guys will be like, `I've got a 9-mm, and
- you've only got a peashooter.' Or they'll brag that `my brother
- has a MAC-10.' As crazy as it's getting, I think it should be
- illegal to have a gun," he says.
- </p>
- <p> Bonnie didn't realize that her son was involved with guns until
- last summer. In June, after Jeff and some friends were shot
- at in a drive-by, they jumped into a Jeep and went looking for
- the assailant's car. When they found the car parked in front
- of a rival's house, Jeff's friend jumped out and pounded on
- it with a wooden club. But just as they were about to leave,
- someone crept up and fired a shotgun blast through the back
- of their Jeep. Jeff ducked, and his friend was hit in the back
- and shoulder.
- </p>
- <p> It was the shoot-out in August that really got Bonnie's attention.
- She decided to fight back, and formed the Benson Youth-Parent
- Association, which chaperones parties and patrols the streets.
- "There are drive-bys all the time," she says. "They don't even
- make the newspaper." Bonnie patrols Benson with a police scanner,
- banking on her belief that mothers still enjoy some diplomatic
- immunity on the streets. "If I won a million dollars tomorrow,
- I'd buy a few buses, fill them with kids and flee Omaha," she
- says. Flee where? "I hadn't thought of that," she responds.
- </p>
- <p> The mayhem has spawned another group, MAD DADS, which stands
- for Men Against Destruction--Defending Against Drugs and Social
- Disorder. They start praying about 10 o'clock every Friday night,
- just before they hit the streets armed with two-way radios,
- police scanners, video cameras and a gutsy determination to
- stop kids from shooting one another. Seven men and two women
- bow their heads around a small table in the one-story, cinder-block
- command center in a rough part of town, hoping for peace, or
- at least enough rain to keep kids off the streets for one more
- night. "The hour is getting late, and our children need us,"
- says John Foster, a vice president of the city employees union,
- who founded the group four years ago after his son was badly
- beaten. The prayer is interrupted by the sound of a gunshot,
- followed shortly by the wail of an ambulance. Foster shakes
- his head. "It's becoming so common," he says. "Some of our young
- people are turning into cold-blooded killers."
- </p>
- <p> Two weeks later, as Foster patrols the largely black, working-class
- neighborhoods in north Omaha, a gunshot crackles through the
- air. Foster turns the corner. A mother and three children run
- toward his car. "Some kids are shooting at people just down
- the street there," says the woman, pointing nervously. Foster
- circles the block, slowing as he approaches a pack of kids mingling
- in front of a house. "We were just having a party, a birthday
- party," says one, "when these guys drive by and start shooting
- at us." Twenty minutes later and only blocks away, Foster comes
- upon a teenage boy being treated by an ambulance team for a
- gunshot wound in the arm. "It's so sad," he says. "I remember
- when you could settle things with fisticuffs. Man, that's antiquated
- now."
- </p>
- <p> The MAD DADS sponsored two gun-buyback programs last winter,
- offering up to $50 for a working weapon, with no questions asked.
- On both days, they ran out of money within half an hour. Total
- haul: 588 guns, some turned in by juveniles. "It amazed me,"
- says C.R. Bell, president of the Greater Omaha Chamber of Commerce.
- In May MAD DADS staged another buyback after sending 100,000
- flyers to nine school districts. The take: 1,124 guns, which
- will be welded into a monument by a local artist. Among them
- was Doug's 12-gauge shotgun. "I figured it was a safe way to
- get rid of it," Doug says. "I did a lot of crazy things with
- that gun, and I didn't want to get caught with it." He plans
- on getting a handgun next.
- </p>
- <p> The birds disappeared from Tony's neighborhood in central Omaha
- when he was in the fourth grade, shortly after he got his first
- BB gun. "I guess I shot a lot of animals," he says sheepishly.
- Now he totes a sawed-off, 20-gauge, pump-action shotgun he bought
- for $20 last January from a 16-year-old friend. "The grip was
- broken, so I got a good price," the 17-year-old says proudly.
- He doesn't shoot birds anymore, but he fires an occasional salvo
- into the night sky around Omaha. "Sometimes I just feel like
- busting it, you know. I just want to pull the trigger and bam!"
- </p>
- <p> An only child, Tony has not seen his father since he was five.
- He is very pro tective of his mother, a social worker. "I told
- her she should get a .380, but she doesn't like guns," he says.
- A senior this fall at Central High with plans to go on to college,
- Tony doesn't do drugs because he doesn't want them to interfere
- with his performance on the football team. He spurns gangs and
- tough-guy behavior, but feels he needs the gun. "It's not a
- macho thing for me," he says. "I mean, I'm not into fighting,
- and I ain't going to shoot anybody. But when you have a gun,
- you feel like can't nobody get you. You can't get got."
- </p>
- <p> Tony's mom learned he had a gun one Saturday night last May.
- "I got home around 2 a.m., which is when I'm supposed to be
- in, and my mom says, `Hurry inside, there's shooting going on.'
- I didn't believe her because we rarely have shooting in our
- neighborhood, but I wasn't going to take any chances, so I turned
- off all the lights and got my shotgun from under my bed. She
- wasn't too happy about it, but she's not going to take it away
- from me."
- </p>
- <p> Tony wants it known that he is not nearly as wild as his friend,
- Mike, who admits to a quick temper and a violent streak. Raised
- alternately by his divorced mother and father in Omaha, Mike
- was 16 when he first saw someone get shot. "It was at a party,"
- he says. "This guy was hit in the chest with a .25. He just
- dropped." So far, Mike claims, he's been shot at five times,
- including the big gunfight last August, which persuaded him
- not to travel unarmed. "Sometimes you need a gun to get out
- of a situation," he says. "You could be in a parking lot just
- kicking it, and people start shooting."
- </p>
- <p> Mike started carrying a gun to school at Central High last winter.
- "I wasn't trying to be hard or anything. It was just for protection,"
- says the lanky 18-year-old, who wears three gold earrings and
- favors a black baseball cap emblazoned with a marijuana leaf.
- "I don't know why, but stuff just started getting hectic, real
- rough. I mean you can get jumped for no reason." The small, .25-cal. Raven pistol, which he bought from a friend, fit snugly
- in the pocket of his winter vest. He even took it along to his
- telemarketing job after work, where he earns $6.50 an hour manning
- the phones. He says, "If people know you have a gun, they just
- don't mess with you."
- </p>
- <p> Mike got caught last April after running into a friend who had
- some pot in the school parking lot. "We smoked a lot," says
- Mike, who had his pistol in the right-hand pocket of his jacket
- along with two clips, one full and the other empty. As he entered
- the school, a rubbery smile on his face, a security guard stopped
- him and took him to the principal's office. "They knew I was
- high, and I was being a dick," he says. "They told me to empty
- my pockets, and I was like, man, everything hit me. I was like,
- f, I messed up!" At the police station, Mike wolfed down a pizza
- and promptly fell asleep.
- </p>
- <p> The high school expelled Mike, and the court put him on probation
- for one year. He transferred to Father Flanagan High and managed
- to graduate in May. Like Tony, he intends to go to college and
- considers all the gunplay just a part of growing up. "I'm a
- pretty normal guy," he says earnestly. "I like to water-ski
- and read Stephen King books and stuff." He proudly announces
- that he owns three different kinds of Bibles, which he likes
- to study. He says he prays every night. After his arrest, Mike's
- parents were supportive and enrolled him in therapy. "My counselor
- says I'm susceptible to peer pressure," he says. "I'm trying
- to work on that."
- </p>
- <p> On a Saturday night in June, Mike and Tony cruise the town in
- Tony's six-year-old Ford subcompact. The windows are down, and
- the tape deck blasts one of their favorite songs, Six Feet Deep
- by the Geto Boys, a Houston rap group. Tony rocks back and forth
- to the music. Mike wonders out loud how many kids are going
- to get shot this summer. "I bet one of our friends is going
- to get it," says Tony, who is wearing a Green Bay Packers cap
- and an Oakland Athletics shirt. "All the gun stuff used to be
- fun, but now it's old. You can't even go to a party without
- worrying about being shot. Someone's always got a gun." Mike
- agrees and mentions the need to bring along friends: "You've
- got to go deep."
- </p>
- <p> They drop by Mike's two-story white house in a nice neighborhood
- in north-west Omaha, where he lives with his dad, so he can
- change baseball caps and grab some more tapes. "You have, like,
- a home life and a street life," he explains. "I'm so different
- at home you wouldn't believe it." Back in the car, they slow
- down occasionally to reach out through the windows and slap
- hands as they pass friends who are hanging out. "People think
- we are just punks and farmers in Omaha, but they're wrong,"
- says Tony. "A lot happens here. It's just a smaller scale than
- L.A."
- </p>
- <p> Mike nervously taps his fingers against the dashboard and then
- turns down the music. "Don't you think it is going to be pretty
- crazy this summer?" he asks, with a mixture of fear and excitement.
- "Real crazy," says Tony, who plans to sell his shotgun and get
- an easier-to-hide .38-cal. pistol. Mike stares out the window,
- worrying about how his probationary status will leave him unarmed.
- "Man, Tony," he says, shaking his head slowly. "I just don't
- see how I'm going to get through this summer without a gun."
- </p>
- <p> Norman Johnson carries no gun anymore, but for a different reason.
- One afternoon last May, as he rode in the backseat of his cousin's
- Ford Escort on a city street, a car pulled up and the occupants
- opened fire. "I was just laying in the backseat, you know, resting,
- when my friend says there's a car right on our tail. Next thing
- you know, I felt this incredible shock. No noise, just shock."
- A bullet slammed into the back of Johnson's neck, crushing two
- vertebrae. "I looked up, and I saw bullet holes in the window,"
- he says, speaking in a raspy voice and pausing frequently to
- gasp for air. "I looked down at my body, and, well, I didn't
- feel anything."
- </p>
- <p> Almost completely paralyzed from the neck down, Johnson, who
- is 6 ft. 3 in. and 20 years old, spent the first month after
- the shooting on a breathing machine. He lost 50 lbs. Between
- hours of physical therapy each day, Johnson has had plenty of
- time to rethink his attitude toward guns.
- </p>
- <p> The youngest of six and a high school dropout, Johnson drifted
- into gangs for support and identity. Asked why he was shot,
- he says, "It's a long story," which means someone was out for
- revenge. Recalling the streets, he tries to cling to some of
- his former toughness. "I guess I was just in the wrong place
- at the wrong time," he says. "It could happen to anyone." But
- that's not enough. "Sometimes it's so hard," he whispers. "I
- get high temperatures and real sweaty, and I get these pains."
- He breathes on his own through a hole in his trachea, which
- a nurse closes with a plug when Johnson wants to talk. "At first
- I wanted to die. Now I'm happy to be alive, but I just want
- to get more feeling back." His voice is meek, beaten, almost
- hollow. When talk turns to football and basketball, he makes
- gulping, swallowing noises. Among cards and photos taped to
- the wall of his hospital bed, an old award certificate is proudly
- displayed. It reads, BANQUET OF CHAMPIONS FOR LITTLE PRO BASKETBALL.
- BOYS' CLUB OF OMAHA. 1984. "I always loved sports, you know.
- I mean I was pretty good." He pauses for air. "I had speed,"
- he murmurs. He is too tired to continue. The nurse pulls the
- trachea plug so he can breathe.
- </p>
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